"People sleep peaceably in their beds at night because rough men stand ready in the night to visit violence on those who would do us harm" - George Orwell

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Water of life


Tuesday, October 23, 2012

OK, I need to start swinging again.

Let's start with this very cool scientific study.
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Depression is a hard thing to fight. I know. I have been in a battle for a couple of weeks now. This is especially bad because I have 6 grand children watching me. I know it's depression because all of these kids always make me smile if not bust out in full blown laughter.

My wife has stage 4 cancer. Most of you, my loyal followers know that. We had good news last week. The chemo is working. Her tumors have been reduced by 30%. She is looking very good. The doc has asked her to go on a fat diet. Ice cream, muffins, candy, chocolate. Good for her, bad for me.

So I have been depressed. I think I'm at that overwhelmed point. Taking care of business, paying bills, buying groceries, running to chemo, on and on. I think a lot of this song says it well enough.
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 Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels  
Looking back at the years gone by like so many summer fields  
In sixty-five I was seventeen and running up one-o-one 
I don't know where I'm running now, I'm just running on
 
Running on, running on empty
  Running on, running blind 
Running on, running into the sun 
But I'm running behind
 
Gotta do what you can just to keep your love alive
  Trying not to confuse it with what you do to survive 
In sixty-nine I was twenty-one and I called the road my own
  I don't know when that road turned onto the road I'm on
 
Running on, running on empty 
 Running on, running blind 
 Running on, running into the sun 
 But I'm running behind
 
Everyone I know, everywhere I go 
 People need some reason to believe 
I don't know about anyone but me  
If it takes all night, that'll be all right  
If I can get you to smile before I leave
 
Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels 
I don't know how to tell you all just how crazy this life feels
  I look around for the friends that I used to turn to, to pull me through 
Looking into their eyes I see them running too
 
Running on, running on empty 
 Running on, running blind 
 Running on, running into the sun 
 But I'm running behind

Ok. I'm shaking it off. I'm ready to go again. I'll try to get some updates out there pretty quick.



4 comments:

  1. Hang in there CC. You can hack it.

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  2. Dude cancer is a kick in the nuts, If this shit DON'T depress you ya got a screw loose. I'v had cancer twice,this is far and away the hardest thing you will EVER do. And you can do it. Faith,love, Your time is a gift. Just lay off the rocky road or ya'll need new shocks on yer bike.

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  3. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Mama told me if I touched any of her Bluebell ice cream I would loose digits. I sneak a spoonful or two when I can.

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  4. You're a good man CC. Never doubt it. Your wife is dang lucky to have you.

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