Depression is a hard thing to fight. I know. I have been in a battle for a couple of weeks now. This is especially bad because I have 6 grand children watching me. I know it's depression because all of these kids always make me smile if not bust out in full blown laughter.
My wife has stage 4 cancer. Most of you, my loyal followers know that. We had good news last week. The chemo is working. Her tumors have been reduced by 30%. She is looking very good. The doc has asked her to go on a fat diet. Ice cream, muffins, candy, chocolate. Good for her, bad for me.
So I have been depressed. I think I'm at that overwhelmed point. Taking care of business, paying bills, buying groceries, running to chemo, on and on. I think a lot of this song says it well enough.
Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels
Looking back at the years gone by like so many summer fields
In sixty-five I was seventeen and running up one-o-one
I don't know where I'm running now, I'm just running on
Running on, running on empty
Running on, running blind
Running on, running into the sun
But I'm running behind
Gotta do what you can just to keep your love alive
Trying not to confuse it with what you do to survive
In sixty-nine I was twenty-one and I called the road my own
I don't know when that road turned onto the road I'm on
Running on, running on empty
Running on, running blind
Running on, running into the sun
But I'm running behind
Everyone I know, everywhere I go
People need some reason to believe
I don't know about anyone but me
If it takes all night, that'll be all right
If I can get you to smile before I leave
Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels
I don't know how to tell you all just how crazy this life feels
I look around for the friends that I used to turn to, to pull me through
Looking into their eyes I see them running too
Running on, running on empty
Running on, running blind
Running on, running into the sun
But I'm running behind
Ok. I'm shaking it off. I'm ready to go again. I'll try to get some updates out there pretty quick.


Hang in there CC. You can hack it.
ReplyDeleteDude cancer is a kick in the nuts, If this shit DON'T depress you ya got a screw loose. I'v had cancer twice,this is far and away the hardest thing you will EVER do. And you can do it. Faith,love, Your time is a gift. Just lay off the rocky road or ya'll need new shocks on yer bike.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement and support. Mama told me if I touched any of her Bluebell ice cream I would loose digits. I sneak a spoonful or two when I can.
ReplyDeleteYou're a good man CC. Never doubt it. Your wife is dang lucky to have you.
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